Anger Leads to Hate

If fear leads to anger, then it makes sense that anger leads to hate. It is, after all, a more intense version of anger. But if you look up “anger” in a thesaurus, “hate” does not show up as a synonym. The two words have subtly different definitions. Anger is defined as a strong feeling […]

Fear Leads to Anger

I’ve spent a lot of my life with my head in the clouds. Most of my childhood was filled with sci-fi books, video games and board games that no one else would ever play. I grew up in a religious household, but spent my days surrounded by friends whose parents were academics. It made it […]

If I Know Then

Last week I turned thirty-six years old. It didn’t bother me. Birthdays now are really just another day and when you have kids, most of the attention stays with them anyhow. It’s not a big deal. I could’ve turned forty-five and I would probably feel the same. Maybe a little more achy. The most I can hope for when it comes to birthday celebrations is spending time with people I love, doing things I enjoy. I mean really, what else is there?

Mornings with Soren

When I find myself in times of trouble, I don’t usually turn to Mother Mary. “Let it be” has never been good enough. I’ve sung that song to myself many times over, reminding my heart that “when the night is cloudy, there is still a light that shines on me.” True as that may be, […]

Into an Indiana Sunset

There’s just something about driving west on 40 on a Sunday evening, staring into the sunset. Particularly when the woman you love says “Let’s take the backroads home” because you know you’re thinking the same thing. That bright yellow-orange ball in the sky highlighting all of the hidden shadows every tree, every damn blade of […]

On the death of creativity

I started seeing a counselor (therapist, or whatever) just before Christmas in 2015. Not because I was feeling depressed. I decided to go because I was stuck. I needed an objective sounding board to help me sort through the endless streaming thoughts flying around in my head. We went through the usual “get to know […]

Lost in Semantics

I’ve gotten carried away in exchanges with strangers before, and almost instantly regretted it. Not because I think it’s wrong to stand up for things like facts. I got upset with myself because I let people get under my skin. It’s a disservice to myself, to begin with. But it’s also an insult to civil […]